I OFFICIALLY FAIL!

Just so the world knows, my computer went to the crapper, and this new computer hates my flash drive and won't recognize it and...

I'M A WHOPPING 9,000 WORDS BEHIND!

Alright. I'm sorry. You didn't deserve that. But it sucks because my flash drive is right here in my pocket and I can't work on my novel because this dumb old computer won't read it. The light flickers on it for a bit, then goes completely dark...

I want to catch up so badly, but this whole computer deal is really taking a hit on me. I don't know what to do...

The First 328 Words

I always wondered what my wedding would be like. Beautiful peals of music bursting forth from a piano somewhere in the rear of the church as I stepped onto the aisle in a white, special design, looking breathtaking. The man at the end of the aisle would be my love, the one who meant everything to me, and in this vision, he’d always be a dashing man with a huge smile on his face. I’d fight to keep from running down the aisle to join him, to start my new life as soon as possible.
The ceremony would be quick and the vows not overly verbose, and then we’d share a kiss and walk down the aisle, hand in hand, looking like the happiest people on the face of the planet, with rice in our hair and nothing but years of love and adventure to look forward to. Children would be contemplated, but not within the first year. Family would visit occasionally, with smiles on their faces and love in their hearts to see how happy we were and how well I was settling.
Our kids would grow, as all do, and we’d send them off to a nice college and promising careers, plowing on to our golden years living off of the government and spoiling our grandchildren until our passing on to the next life, if you believe in that.
As beautiful of an idea as this seemed, it was not to be. These kinds of things only happened in books, fairy tales, and in history. Nothing like this ever happens in Society X.
My name is Rebeckah Delvair, a citizen of Society X and the product of a large, prestigious family. The first daughter of a Mr. Nathan Delvair, sprung forth from the womb of one of his first wives. I have thirty six brothers and sisters and another seven on the way. But I am also sixteen and I will never have my dream wedding.

That, my fellow writing comrads, is the first 328 words of my novel. I kind of hate the tense problems I've got going on, but I want to make a point.

First off, you've got to give yourself permission to suck and suck bad. Otherwords, you're never going to get anywhere with it. My hatred for that intro's many issues is great, but I told myself "It's okay to suck. That's what NaNoEdMo is for."

Secondly, remember not to go back and edit. It's a long, broad path that is just gonna suck you further and further away from your ultimate goal: 50,000 words and/or a completed novel. Squelch the inner editor and I promise you the words will flow faster.

Current Progress: 3035/50000

I'm off to stop procrastinating and get to writing, and you should too. :)

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My heart really hurts right now. I can't figure out how it's gonna work anymore...

:(

Today was supposed to be happy.

Growth

My plot seeds are growing! From a tiny little seed I'm starting to see sprouts of something that could potentially turn out amazing... If only I can grow it properly.

You see, I am someone who doesn't come up with good solutions to plot problems when I'm not under pressure. Even now, I can tell you the things I know about my little baby plot are just the characters and setting. I don't even hardly know the characters. Pressure forces me to think outside of the box... outside of the little novel world and into what would anger me most if I was reading it. Because that is one of the things that has always kept me reading something. If I'm mad, I wanna keep going til I'm happy with it again. That could just be me, but that's how it's always been. Under pressure, I have to keep going despite the little rabbit trails and traps along the way. I think that's the reason I survived NaNo last year.

That... and a laptop. Which I presently fail to own... I don't know what I'm going to do without one. But I shall make it work. Paper or electronically. Because this story demands to be written. So keep going despite your adversity and I'll keep going despite mine. :)

Support System

So today was rather productive. I went to school, got some research done, put in some hard work as a library TA, and tried to wrap my brain around some new concepts in Calculus AP. How that's gonna work for NaNoWriMo... I dunno. But this year is gonna happen, just like it did last year. I just know it.

I kind of wanted to talk about the importance of having a support system for surviving NaNoWriMo this year. It's crucial to have at least one other person also undergoing NaNoWriMo with you for many reasons.

It's such a help to have someone to relate with! If you're the only person in your household participating and don't know anyone else going through with it, you often feel as though no one understands you. You're lonely, your friends are tired of hearing about how your stubborn MC won't keep the story moving for you, and you're just plain stuck. A support system buddy(or buddies!), especially local ones you can actually meet with, can provide those things you're missing! You'll have someone to gripe with you when you plateau around 25k words, someone to war with to boost that word count, and someone you can count on when your plot gets too tangled for you to make heads or tails of it.

Just something to think about as NaNoWriMo approaches.

(PS, I got some stuff for my NaNo Survival kit today! Hershey's kisses. Yum. :) )

Almost October 1st

Ladies and gentlemen, hold onto your hats, because November's coming and it's coming fast. And we all know that means www.nanowrimo.com is almost here!

I can't believe it's been a whole year since I met Shiloh and allowed her to drag me along with her in her story of finding love and coping with loss. I watched as she met with Ashton, Blake, and Caleb. Listened to the anguish in Blake's voice as he spoke of Rachel, his first love. And tingled with the warm, fuzzy goodness that always comes with a happy ending. NaNoWriMo 2009, my first real and successful attempt and NaNoWrimo, was a journey and an adventure that I'm elated to be jumping into again.

All these amazing ideas are floating into my brain like clouds flying by in the sky, although the ideas are often flawed and disappear quickly. I'm sure something more solid will stick around when I've got the right idea for this year. I got thirty one more days to get a general idea.

On another note, yesterday I applied to USC and Anderson University. It was kinda scary, applying for college for the first time, not quite sure if I'm doing it right or if I'm good enough or if I'll be able to afford it. It's hard, being human, and letting things out of your control without constantly worrying how it's going to turn out in the grand scheme of things. So many different people and elements factor into my college decision and I don't know what's right and what I'm supposed to do other than make a way for myself and make no apologies. It's my life and I can't let little things hold me back or get in the way of all I can achieve or be.

Freak Out

It's crazy how quickly things get insanely hard to manage so early in the school year, especially as a senior. Already, I've missed one project, obtained a TA job, had goodness knows how many tests, a test tomorrow with a study guide I've yet to complete and...

Breath.

In and out. In and Out. (Haha, that reminds me of a NaNoWriMo insider about making pancakes. xD)

AND NaNoWriMo starts in 41 days! I have no idea what I'm doing yet! I believe this time last year I had some characters... a general idea, but this year, I've got nothing. Nothing at all. And it totally stinks. Only positive is that my best friend is doing it with me this year. But no laptop.

All I've got is a the name Erin. I dunno why. I just decided I wanted a character named Erin this year.

And I've kind of entertained the idea of doing a novel based off of the song "Love The Way You Lie" by Eminem featuring Rihanna but I don't want a sad depressing NaNoNovel. I want a cheerful month. So I'm thinking about doing a more abstract kind of universe rather than a real life regular one simply for the fact that I want to create my own. Problem is... What kind of society would it be? Would it even be on the planet? Would they have supernatural powers?

Questions I need answers to...

Unnessesary Backstory

My name is Gabrielle Lynne. If you're reading this, you know all about me, so there's no reason for me to share info. :)

I decided to start a blog to publicly record the events in my life and allow people inside just a little bit. So... Read if you like, at your leisure, and follow if it so tickles your fancy. I won't mind.

Jennilynn - Best Friend
Christi - Boyfriend
(Just for reference, later on :) )

So today is Christi's birthday... and I've got massive plans for later on, but I can't reveal them just yet because I don't know if he'll be reading this before then. :)But it's gonna be awesome hanging out with my two favorite people in the known universe. They color my life.

Jennilynn and I met in seventh grade when she moved in and we started talking. We got into some pretty bad stuff with this other girl we used to talk to and then pretty much got free of it in eighth grade when we were put in a separate block than the other girl. But then Jennilynn went back to homeschooling and I started high school close friends with this other girl. Although Jennilynn and I tried to stay friends throughout my high school endeavors, it didn't really work out well till I really made an attempt after my sophomore year. Since then we've been closer than ever. I love her with all my heart and I can't imagine my life without her by my side. :)

The time Christi and I met is kinda blurry. When we met, I wasn't really interested in him. He was just kinda there... and then when I messaged him about Skillet, a friendship blossomed. We exchanged numbers and got to know each other really well, and he became one of my best friends. I began to develop feelings towards him but he always had a girlfriend so I never really wanted to say anything for fear of embarrassment(not that I thought he would make fun of me. I just saw no need.) So I ignored them, kinda was in denial, until I finally admitted it to him and myself a few days after Christmas. A little over two months later, we were dating. In five days it will be five months. :) Second and best relationship I've ever been in, hands down.

I suppose that is all for now. Maybe more to come tomorrow once I've carried out my birthday plans for him. ;)