Almost October 1st

Ladies and gentlemen, hold onto your hats, because November's coming and it's coming fast. And we all know that means www.nanowrimo.com is almost here!

I can't believe it's been a whole year since I met Shiloh and allowed her to drag me along with her in her story of finding love and coping with loss. I watched as she met with Ashton, Blake, and Caleb. Listened to the anguish in Blake's voice as he spoke of Rachel, his first love. And tingled with the warm, fuzzy goodness that always comes with a happy ending. NaNoWriMo 2009, my first real and successful attempt and NaNoWrimo, was a journey and an adventure that I'm elated to be jumping into again.

All these amazing ideas are floating into my brain like clouds flying by in the sky, although the ideas are often flawed and disappear quickly. I'm sure something more solid will stick around when I've got the right idea for this year. I got thirty one more days to get a general idea.

On another note, yesterday I applied to USC and Anderson University. It was kinda scary, applying for college for the first time, not quite sure if I'm doing it right or if I'm good enough or if I'll be able to afford it. It's hard, being human, and letting things out of your control without constantly worrying how it's going to turn out in the grand scheme of things. So many different people and elements factor into my college decision and I don't know what's right and what I'm supposed to do other than make a way for myself and make no apologies. It's my life and I can't let little things hold me back or get in the way of all I can achieve or be.

Freak Out

It's crazy how quickly things get insanely hard to manage so early in the school year, especially as a senior. Already, I've missed one project, obtained a TA job, had goodness knows how many tests, a test tomorrow with a study guide I've yet to complete and...

Breath.

In and out. In and Out. (Haha, that reminds me of a NaNoWriMo insider about making pancakes. xD)

AND NaNoWriMo starts in 41 days! I have no idea what I'm doing yet! I believe this time last year I had some characters... a general idea, but this year, I've got nothing. Nothing at all. And it totally stinks. Only positive is that my best friend is doing it with me this year. But no laptop.

All I've got is a the name Erin. I dunno why. I just decided I wanted a character named Erin this year.

And I've kind of entertained the idea of doing a novel based off of the song "Love The Way You Lie" by Eminem featuring Rihanna but I don't want a sad depressing NaNoNovel. I want a cheerful month. So I'm thinking about doing a more abstract kind of universe rather than a real life regular one simply for the fact that I want to create my own. Problem is... What kind of society would it be? Would it even be on the planet? Would they have supernatural powers?

Questions I need answers to...